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My parents bought me choco baby from hmart. Reminded me of how choco baby isn't really one of the foods I've gotten bored of. I have favorite foods that I get bored of overtime because I eat them so much. I don't eat choco baby often because there is only one store that I know that sells it, and I don't go to hmart that often. I go without a few weeks without choco baby and that's for the better. I've started to try new foods especially at places where I already have a favorite food on the menu. It's nice to find something good while giving me a break so I don't get sick of a food earlier. My parents are always suprised when I want to try something new. Sometimes they ignore my request until I practially yell it in their ear. I used to be sort of picky. I'm only picky with foods I know what tastes like. I'm down for trying new stuff, but if I don't like it I'm not going to try it again. That's normal, right? Back on topic, choco baby is very good. It's pretty boring considering it's just chocolate pellets, but I think its simplicity is what pleases me. It's why I like vanilla icecream. I'm not sure if anyone else has this reasoning, but I like vanilla icecream because it's very versatile. You can top it with anything and it will still taste good, and if you want it plain it won't ruin your appetite because of its specific flavor. (if that makes sense...) There are other candies that Meiji have made that are more unique or specific. Like those cone strawberry and chocolate candies. I think those are alright but choco baby takes the cake, in my opinion.

(I've already ate some in this photo lol)

1:56, February 8, 2026

I got a 99 on my math test that I thought I was going to get like a C on. 3 of those points were from the bonus question, but still a 96 for questions I barely understood is great. I'm so happy!

What I'm not happy about are the dreams I've been having lately. Dating back to late 2025, I've had a concerning about of dreams where a shooting happens at I place I'm at. Today it was at a sort of hotel, I don't remember much of course, but I'll try to explain what I remember. I was with my family and it seemed like we were on a vacation. We booked a hotel and I'm not sure when, but I get news of a suspicious person inside the building. I remember I saw, on a TV screen of some sorts, footage of someone roaming the halls of the hotel with a gun in their hand. No one died or got injured, they just walked around with a gun. At some point me and my family move to another room with another family. I remember getting into bed, despite it being practically white outside, and I woke up. I previously had dreams of a school, not MY school but I school I was in, getting shot up and having to hide. I remember this one dream where I was in a really big cafeteria with an abnormaly high ceiling and the lights were off and I could hear the gunshots. I hid behind a table, as instructed, and after a bit I woke up. I had this dream of a mall too, but it was a lot more vivid. I was on the floor where the shooting happened, and I could hear the screams and gunshots clearly. I'm probably jinxing myself while writing this. This reminds me of the story where a girl dreamt her school just exploded and when she went to school more than 100 people, including herself, died from a gas leak. Was that real? I don't know and I'm not looking it up. I don't watch any mass shooting video essays or anything. I'm not in the tcc or whatever those dumb fucks are called. Why? Please, I don't want to die...

5:16, February 6, 2026

It feels so weird looking back on myself from 2020-2022 because I tried so hard to be self aware.

During quartine, I refused to download tiktok and only watched tiktok compilations on youtube. I actually only watched cringe tiktok compilations for hours on end, and tried my best to never be like those weird mha/dsmp fans. I used to spam the word poggers after every sentence. I said I hated the dsmp and everything like that. I would also constantly use the UwU phrase just about everywhere, in real life too I'm pretty sure. I used to have a gacha channel and posted the shittiest animations know to mankind. I joined a sort of gacha collab project about the backrooms but that is another story for another time. (It wasn't THAT crazy but some odd stuff happened.) Any person today would say I was extremely cringy, and I'm even doing it right now. Honestly, me pretending to be some anti-cringe warrior when I was in the exact same boat made me even more cringe than I already was. You might've been putting pads in your Dangaronpa wigs, but I was different and way cooler. I made fun of MHA cosplayers while saying poggers and UwU every nanosecond.

I never really understood the art class conversation jokes until this school year. My art class in 90% teenage boys so I'm not sure whact to expect, but why are they talking about the KKK and Adolf Hitler? Everyone else only hearing the worst part of the conversation still is an interesting phenomona to me. Everything else they've said goes under the radar, but when Hitler is mentioned apparently everyone in the room has super hearing. Well, obviously, it's just either the bad part being said a little too loud or the bad part being said when the whole class goes completely silent. Weird.

5:24, January 30, 2026

2 days off from school and a 2 hour delay, maybe this"storm" isn't so bad after all.

As you can see, I've added many little bits of (copied and pasted) code to make this website even tackier than it already was. I aspire my site to look like this specific dog food brand's packaging.

I know I still have a longgggggg way to go.

I did end up finishing the hetalia anime and movie, now I just need to tackle the manga and get it all over with. I still do need to finish Scandinavia and the World. Actually, I need to finish a lot of stuff. I've already wasted all of my freetime...

8:36, January 27, 2026

I just finished that comic page I've been sleeping on and yeah I am not keeping a schedule on this. I won't post it yet because I still have references (sigh) to make of the """main cast""" I might just make a few comics and post those on the same day so people have something to read besides a singular page. My back hurts. Goodnight internet!

1:48, January 26, 2026

Maybe it's because I'm in the wrong area, or that I have to wait till nighttime, but that was not a winter storm. I've seen some people say it was all a ploy to get people to buy more stuff because of the horrible economy. Maybe they're right, maybe they're wrong. You tell me.

I've always liked my original stories over actual media. This has bugged me for so long but I never admitted it. Growing up I didn't really have any interests besides my own characters. Yeah I liked pokemon but that was just about it. I would constantly draw my characters, write about my characters, think about my characters, you could say I breathed my original stories instead of oxygen. In 2020, where everyone became dangerously chronically online, I started to gain a few more interest because I had nothing to do. I liked danganronpa but never played a single game. I don't even think I watched a full gameplay. It was pretty easy to larp back then, huh? Even then, I would imagine my ocs executions and what their ultimates would be or whatever. It was like all roads lead to Rome but instead it was all of my interests lead to my ocs.
I used to devote my social media accounts to one preexisting character, but there was a very slim chance I actually felt so attached to them. I always force myself to pick a favorite character after I watch a show or play a game. If I like them slightly more than everyone else in the cast I might just make them my profile picture on some random account I barely use. Now, I refrain from making one of my accounts themed around one character because I know I'm not that connected to them. I only really did that type of stuff because I wanted to be know for something, or someone.
Not feeling an attachment to preexisting characters is also why I don't do stuff like selfshipping and shipping in general. Being aroace online has led me to see some of the most unfunniest, band kid humor esque memes and I had to laugh at them because it was one of the only communities I was in. A common joke was that aroace people were only attracted to fictional characters, but I never felt that. I've never felt any genuine romantic or sexual attraction to anyone or anything in my life. Do people actually feel that attraction to fictional characters or am I being gaslighted? Not that I care too much, but do selfshippers feel the same type of attraction to characters as to real people? Or is it more weak and less genuine? I won't say that applies to everyone because some people do have disabilities that make them feel that way, but I'm generalizing here. I'm starting to get a bit off topic, but that reason is also why I don't care about shipping. Again, I only really ship something to tell people I ship something but I don't think about it at all. I know why people love shipping and I get the appeal. It's just not something I can get attached to. It's hard for me to enjoy fandom when 90% of the content is shipping related. I can't feel connection to characters like other people do.

3:41, January 25, 2026

I was looking at the hemorrhoids wikipedia page and... Just look at that arch. Getting hemorrhoids must make you a freak or something.

Anyways, I'm not posting anything on the art log because all I'm really drawing is references and they are mostly just meant for me to see only. Honestly I've been pretty unmotivated to do anything. I've been forcing myself to draw at least once a day but that results in some pretty mediocre drawings. It's probably because I'm not really having fun with it. One full body, no shading, and some info. Every day. I should probably start doing more experimental stuff. I should start designing characters without making proper references. Well I found the solution to my problem already, cheers!

12:47, January 25, 2026

If you think about it, all seasons suck. Winter is too cold and it's flu season. Spring causes allergies and there's too much rain. (controversial opinion maybe but I hate rain being wet makes me uncomfortable) Summer is way to hot and mosquitoes. September starts the school year and is just kind of boring. That is why I don't have a favorite season.

On a lighter note, if you have ocs you should do this quiz for reseach purposes. (you can sumbit multiple)

5:09, January 24, 2026

I'm home alone currently. You guys hear about that winter storm in America? I don't think im anywhere in the purple but I'm pretty close to those areas. I havent seen so many people be so on the fence about a situation...Ive seen many people saying power will be out for weeks but also many people saying it will be 1 inch of snow. I just hope I get some days off from school, or at least Monday.

I'm working on the first page of my webcomic. Its actually not even that complicated I just like procrastinating. I might not be able to keep a steady schedule.

I have decided I will be doing art fight this year. Last year I did 3 attacks and stopped. I didn't have any characters because I was working on them and didn't want people to see outdated versions of them. I ditched those characters in September so I guess I was right.

5:58, January 23, 2026

While I was on a walk I saw someone in their driveway and very loudly screamed (when they saw me?). I passed their house and they screamed again. I also heard someone say, "The black shirt who is it?" Also very loudly. I doubt it was about me but I think it would be funny if it was. Two different dogs also came up barking at me.

In the car my dad asked me specifically (my mom and brother were also in the car) "Do you know about ICE?" I said yes and then asked me how I felt about it, then brung up the fact that my grandparents are immigrants. I didn't respond but after a minute I realized when he asked me that the radio was playing "Black or White" by Michael Jackson. I assumed that song playing reminded him of the ICE stituation (though he could've just remembered it randomly), but why did he ask me that specifically?

7:42, January 16, 2026

Yesterday people were throwing apples at lunch. There were crushed apples on the floor. One of my friends said some of the apple got on her face.

I got my first A+ rank with Oguri Cap too. I got a mid sr card with the scout ticket though.

3:45, January 16, 2026

I'm working on a Kaitai-San polymer clay sculpture right now and...Idk how to use the oven. Lets all hope this goes well! I'll make a whole page for the process. (And do it for other big projects too)

I am now the thing I hated. A hetalia fan. Don't associate me with the hetalia fandom, it's a whole snow storm. (China is my goat though)

The guy who made the dilbert comics died very recently because of cancer. Too bad he's a crazy conservative-anti-fundingcancertreatmentorsomething. He had it coming, rest in piss, Scott Adams.

11:16, January 14, 2026

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! Went by quick, huh?

12:03, January, 2026

I've been thinking about my fear of death for a while. I only now know why I have that fear. It's fomo.

The thought of the world changing without me makes me upset. What if a famously bad person dies? What if a cure for a previously incurable disease is developed? Even to stuff as small as a really good show coming out. I don't want it to happen without me witnessing it. I know many people look down upon this thought, but I wish I was immortal.

5:20, December 29, 2025

Ice cream cake is the best cake of all time

10:39, December 27, 2025

Merry Christmas guys!

I got an Ipad, giant microbe keychains, and some other stuff. I already have had my fun drawing on the Ipad. It's very nice and better than using my finger.

I ran out of places to put the keychains on so I just let Len hold Pandemic Flu. They're such good friends...

3:58, December 26 2025

Added a box for updates because it might be useful. Jiggy is gone though, he'll probably be replaced.

The about creator page is under construction currently. Don't worry about it.

Soon I will add something to the art log...just wait...

3:58, December 20, 2025

I came back, hi!

Why does this site have so many views? I've never shown it on a different platform or anything. Are people really doomscrolling on neocities?

I made a new website but ended up hating it. Guess I'll just use this one instead.

7:17, December 17, 2025

Hellooo

12:19 July 18, 2025